On Today's Docket...

Where on earth could I begin?? lol So many things going on right now that I am not sure where to begin. The last post ended on some sort of bad news with the unexpected fall out with my best friend, but this one isn't gonna be negative at all! :-D
I guess I should start right after the events with Kelly. Well of course I was a little bummed out about losing a best friend to something so silly but the very next night was my church's first youth service. I was the guest preacher. I had prayed, prepared, prayed, studied, prayed, and then prayed. I was absolutely ready to go on this thing! Well it went off with virtually no flaws at all as far as the organization of the thing went and I really believe God did some awesome stuff within the church. And that somewhat begins everything that's happened up to now.
God loves the "sneak plays." He has been restoring things in me that I didn't even know NEEDED restoring until the work was finished. lol I was angry and cynical and just flat out tired of "church." But God has cleaned all that up and fixed it so now I can actually get over my own selfish attitude and begin to really serve God! I now have a stronger desire to preach now more than ever before, a compassion for people that is greater than before, passion for Christ that I've never had before, and just an over all desire to be what God wants me to be and not even what I would like to be. It's ALL about God!!
I'm reading "The Purpose Driven Life" and it's saying that we were created for a simple purpose. God's enjoyment. God didn't NEED to create any of us, He simply WANTED to create us so He could have a relationship with us. God doesn't NEED you... He WANTS you. Now think about that one... You can NEED someone you don't really WANT... So to be needed is an obligatory desire. If you know this really annoying person that is awesome with computers, you probably don't really want him around much... However, when that PC crashes, you don't WANT him, you NEED him. So when you need someone, you tolerate them until their necessity is finished. When you WANT someone, they might not be able to do anything at all to benefit you but you just enjoy having them around because they are a blessing to you. You might be smarter than them, look better, be richer, be classier, or anything else that you can list, but when you WANT them there, you don't "tolerate" their more negative traits because you really don't see them because of the enjoyment they bring to you. Hope all that made sense. lol
Moving right along, I've learned that not only does God WANT me, He is also GOD!! I mean get that! HE IS GOD!! That means He is unlimited in power, awesomeness, mercy, grace, love, and everything else! There is no god before Him and there will be no god after Him! He won't be impeached, re-elected, nominated, or thrown from power. He will also never resign! HE IS GOD!! That ALSO means that whatever problem you have in your life, He has the answer!!
Okay I'm gonna have to continue this a little later because it's getting close to work time!! lol Love you all who read this! Ah shucks I love ya even if ya don't read this!! lol God bless ya and I'll update again soon!!

In Christ,
Corey

Man what a busy few days it's been!

I may have to compare schedules with Amy now to see just who is the busiest right now! lol Man! Well today is Monday and since last Wednesday to now, my life has been on some crazy terms. To start things off, my car starts messing up. The water pump is bad on it and I don't have any money to fix it. Well THAT leads to the next line up of disaster. I call my uncle who owed me about $300 and ask him for it. He said he didn't have then I told him I needed him to get it. I explained the situation to him so he'd know the urgency of the situation. I guess I should mention that he has owed me this money for a while and has been putting it off until now so I wasn't just being a rude jerk about it. Anyway, my uncle and I both apparently were more stressed than we realized and this convo about money turned nasty REAL quick. We basically had a falling out over the phone and I was concerned our relationship wouldn't be the same from that point on. This one has a silver lining. He called minutes after that and told me he just got paid $1000 and he would pay off his debt to me if I came and picked up a check. Well when I got to his house, he began apologizing for the convo and kept explaining that he wouldn't ever hurt me like that intentionally and all that so we worked it out and now we are even closer than before. Now for the mack daddy of this week.
Our phones went out a few days so I couldn't sign online. When I WAS able to sign on I saw an email from my best friend titled "Okay" I thought nothing of it until I opened it. I had not responded to his previous email from 3 days prior, so when I got this I thought maybe it would be a "man, you dead?!?" kinda email. Ya know something lighthearted. Instead he proceeds to literally crawl me up one side and down the other about not responding and pitching a hissy fit for no logical reason at all. He says that I'm mad at him for not hiring my parents to do some work at his house, AND because he's not crazy about the church I go to. He then proceeds to tell me how wrong I am for holding such a grudge and includes this statement, "Don't worry about responding to this (not that you will) but maybe one day we can work this out but it won't be now." Needless to say I'm floored by the rudeness, idiocy and absolute gall of this email. Rather than responding angrily as I WANTED to do, I call him and left him a voice message saying that I was not angry at anything and that I would like him to call me back to discuss this thing. Instead of calling, he emails back saying that we could talk about it but by that time it was real late and he would've been in bed then so I emailed back. I was as polite as I could've been, without just wiping his behind for him, and I thought about everything that I wrote and simply explained to him that this was just a misunderstanding and wasn't anything to worry about. I then explained that it didn't matter to me that he hired someone else to do that work and that the church thing wasn't an issue. After that email I get a response that is even harsher than the first one and that REALLY took me back. So I responded to that with this statement, "I don't know what you're angry at and I can't understand why I'm the venting post for it but until you get to where you can respond calmly, I won't argue this anymore." To which he flat out ended our friendship cold.
Now that I've told you all this bad stuff, let me tell you how good God has been in all of it. First, my uncle and I survived that battle with even better bonds than before. Second, I am currently having my car fixed and will have money left over. Thirdly, in spite of my friend's rampage, I surrendered it to God that same day and I've honestly not been hurting anymore over it. It's like God stepped in a almost immediately filled the void when that left. As my Pastor told me, "When you do remodeling, you always have old stuff to tear down and tear out first. God is just wanting to do some remodeling in you." God is absolutely amazing! Love to all who read this!! God Bless you always!!

In Love with Christ Jesus,
Corey Forsyth

Finding is Hard to Do

Man I thought I was pretty busy before college... I was sorely mistaken. I'm working like a madman now!! lol NOW I can sympathize with Amy... lol I've had to go help Dad in remodeling since my uncle decided it would be okay to let me work for a few weeks without pay. Needless to say I'm having a blast getting my money now. Anywho, so we've been working now for 9 days straight to try and catch up on our remodeling committments. It's fun though because I get to do some actual building now instead of just handing dad some tools ever so often. In other news, college IS going well, my lowest grade on anything so far was a 92 and that's awesome compared to anything related to high school! lol What else.. hmmm... oh! The last Sunday night of this month, I'm preaching at our church's first Youth Service! I'm wanting to pull out lots of stops to make this a memorable message. I got dramas in the middle of the message, hopefully video and audio presentations to support my message as I'm preaching it, so it should be a different scenario from the pulpit if nothing else. Well it's getting close to work time so I'll take off for now but be good and I'll see ya again soon. :-)

I Reckon I Be Overdue for an Update...Again... hehe

I figured if I didn't update soon Amy would worry again so here I am. :-) First off, I'm extremely excited because next week I start college! Next Thursday is the first class towards a better future for the Corey!! Also, I've picked a "paying" job during my school career. My uncle has not paid me in over 2 weeks and I found out yesterday he had the money to pay me over the weekend but blew it on some unneccessary work for some guy with a sob story so I started working with my dad again since he's covered up in work right now. It's better pay and I KNOW my dad pays employees first! lol Oh well... I guess that's about all I can write at the moment. Thanks for stopping by and reading! God Bless! :-)
PS- That last post WAS nothing more than a valley... A low one, but still a valley... lol I think someone should write a song about valleys... You could title it "Even in the Valley" Sounds like a hit to me!! haha Love ya girl!! Thanks for being you! :-)

It Is Well With My Soul

Well I think I'm gonna really share a little bit of the deeper side of my heart on this one.
I am not a perfect man. I am not a "good" man. I am sinful by nature and I have a side that is sometimes deceptive and speaks lies. I am tired of the "preacher" mask that I've been trained to wear for so many years. I'm tired of everyone thinking I've got it all together and that I don't have any real problems in life. The fact of the matter is that I have as many if not more problems, in some cases, than others. I will spare you the list however, I will give one issue that I think I need to just express outwardly in order to deal with it.
I was terribly hurt by the church that my Dad began 4 years ago. People that called us "family" stabbed us in the back and then felt the need to twist it until most of our vital organs were severed. Other people went to their peers and decided it would be okay to spread outright lies about my family while one family in particular chose to wedge themselves so deep into our personal life that it has become a barrier in our family that we are still having to fight with even to this day. I'm tired of the pain. I am not naive enough to believe it will just simply leave overnight but I am really so sick of the pain. It has become such an issue that I feel it has virtually disected my line to the Lord. I cannot feel His presence like I once did. I cannot pray with the same passion and with the same conviction I once did. I cannot even hear God like I once could. Make no mistake, I still love the Lord with all my heart and I do not want to abandon anything or anybody, but I need Him to shine His face on me once again. I need to feel the warmth of the Holy Spirit gently hugging me just to assure me that it will be alright. I need to heard Jesus tell me He loves me like He did before. I need Jesus. I have not backslidden as many would probably say I have by this description, I have been told that I'm experiencing a "dry season" but I personally think that person was just a pentecostal zealot trying to "fill his tag" for the day. I'm cynical yet open to the move of God and I'm hurt yet still love the Lord. I feel almost like a walking contradiction most of the time. I have even lost most of my desire to preach and minister for now, but I think that's most because I need to be fed rather than be the one feeding. Nevertheless, despite myself I STILL know that God is God and that there is peace that is beyond understanding and grace that is sufficient for all my needs but it seems that God has, not forsaken, but blocked me for just a while and I know He's there and will never leave me but almost like He is leaving me alone to fight on my own for a while without intervening in the way He always has before. Maybe it's a season of growth. Maybe there is a blessing on the other side of this that I won't be able to contain. Who knows? God does. I find hope in the fact that God still loves me and His Son said that God takes notice when a sparrow falls from the sky and WE are of much more value to God than many sparrows. So with that said I would like to be understood as saying that I am not a complainer and I am not one to say God hates me beacuse something goes wrong, I just have to teach myself that it's not my responsibility to make everyone think I'm perfect and I shouldn't try and bottle my problems up inside just to allow them to explode at one time.
Well anyway I said I wasn't getting into all that but lo and behold here we are. Thanks for reading hope I didn't depress or discourage anyone at all. Be blessed of God in all you do !!


IN Jesus Name,
Corey

Back By Popukar Demand!! Okay Well maybe just Amy... ;-)

Well Amy Marie told me I should update and since she's the woMAN, I guess I will... hehe LOTS of things have happened since I last updated so I'll recap the top 3. First off, my church closed its doors in late April. We prayed REALLY hard about it and came to the conclusion that we should've done it a while back. lol But anyway we closed the church down and my parents are taking a "break" even though I keep telling them it's probably not too smart to do that but I do understand the hurt we all felt with the backbiting and lying done my those who were "closest" to us. But I'm not rehashing that one... While my parents take a church break, I haven't even missed a service. I went to this church called Calhoun Community Church just 6 miles north of my house, at the begging of an old church friend. I am typically really skeptical about this denomination but I promised my friend I'd come check it out one night. Well I did just that and, long story short, felt the presence of God and felt that this was my new church home. I'm probably the closest to God I've been in a while.
In other news, I've made a career change. I'm no longer a clothing store manager. I am managing an auto body shop. My uncle has hired me to run his business so he and his other employees can just do body work and not hassle with paperwork and order sheets and customers. lol So that's awesome!! It's a full time day job with NO weekends and flexible schedule to allow for college classes. SPEAKING OF COLLEGE..... lol I start in July at Coosa Valley Technical College to get my Associates degree in Computer Networking. Now what's REALLY awesome to me is that I went to take the entrance exam THINKING I would just get by... Well I didn't... The lady that scored my test told me it was the best test she's seen ever. I almost made perfect scores in almost not time at all on ALL parts!!! I wanted to cry when she told me that because I KNOW it was just the Lord allowing me to do that. But in addition to that, school is TOTALLY free!!! HOPE Grant is a Georgia Federal Grant that covers all tuition plus $100 towards books. Then Pell Grant kicks in to cover the rest of my books and whatever other costs college requires. I am now on my way to being something other than a low income musician who has no real future... I now have a future that is really bright in a field I enjoy!
I reckon that is all the news in Coreyland for now... But since I know at least Amy reads this I guess I could update a little more often.. :-D By the way, IM me sometime Unthank!! lol Later!!

'Bout Time Fer Anudder One

It's been over a month since I've updated so I figure it's about time for another update in Coreyville. Not that anyone actually gives a rip what happens here... But I'm gonna update anyway. :-P So I quit my job last week. Final straw. Don't really feel like going into much detail but enough became enough for me so I wrote a "be angry and sin not" letter to inform my manager that I would not be returning to work. I tried to hang on to leave in the appropriate way with the 2 week notice, which I had already placed with the company, but I just couldn't take it anymore. Anyway, that's that. I DO think I found a great opportunity though. Kmart in Calhoun GA seemed very promising so maybe I can go work there and pay bills, and seriously take control of my future by getting into school. If anyone reads this, I'd appreciate the input. I'm considering the following fields: Music Composition, Music Ed., Graphic Design, Animation, Audio Production, Teaching, Counseling, and Computer Specialist. These are primarily generalized areas of study so anything related to them would be fair play in my search for a major. I WOULD like for any/everyone who reads this to give your opinion on which area would fit me the best. To extend that, if you have any suggestions outside any of the above mentioned courses, feel free to give those as well. Thanks. :-)
In other news, my cousin is back home from Iraq...FOR GOOD!!! I've been spending all the spare time I can with him. Ya never really know how much someone REALLY means to you until you realize that they aren't always gonna be around. He really is my buddy and I'm more thankful that he's home than words could ever depict. We went to the drag races a couple of weeks ago and played football all afternoon this past Sunday. I've had a BLAST!
I again ask all who read this to please give input on the college thing. Every opinion is vital to me as I use those in consideration as I make my final decision. I always seek out many opinions so I can fully understand the situation in ALL aspects then make an intelligent decision based on the information I have recieved. :-) Thanks again! God Bless and Goodnight.